love tis

well, i reli live my life normally these few days..... sleep early n wake up early... not drinking although there r few bottles of hard liqour n moet putting in front of me, not even one sip.... went NO BLACK TIE wit alvin yesterday for his birthday celebration, well, is a nice place which hav live band play de jazz song... it's reli a nice place for couple to drink de wine n billing n cooing... but too bad, i'm nt allow to drink tat night due to my stomachache.... haha, we call tis as self disiplin.... went movie wit alvin again these afternoon, n again, i watched tis- astro byond advertisment, i love tis advertisment so so much, it juz so awesome... n i love its song oso, but i hav no idea at all wats tis song name.... here wit de link of the advertisment... enjoy!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YDW72UmdawM&feature=related

pop for cny?

was session at nikki house las fri after phuture... well, its been 3-4 months more i didnt pop, coz phobia of the after feeling, it's so disgusting n u wil get sleepless, moody, no appetite.... but somehow i stil took it las fri, haha, pop for cny celebration?... no comment.... juz suddenly feel like taking it... well de pill is quite nice, n i was quite gone... after party went swimming n jaguzee wit frens.. results, i catch cold n oso bcoz of de after kick, i feel so unwell, keep sweating, feel cold, stomach unwell, n at tat moment, i reli feel regret n guitly.... haiz... one week more wil start school, hopefully wil get bac to normal life soon.... party less, sleep early n wake up early....

how to summarize my current life by using a math equation?? n the result shows tat i'm practically WORTHLESS!!!

Me = m + (g-b) +mq + b + f + c

which equals the value of my life, indicating the higher it is, the closer I'll reach NIRVANA and hav extreme satisfaction of life; where the following variables r described:

[m] is the amount of money I'm having now.. well, i'm stil a student n i'm not earning any money, the main source of my income is the little pocket money from my parents, which i stil need to subtract it wit my rental fees, my meals, my wardrobe, so actually the amount of money i'm having nw is fluctuating around the zero figure..so can b approximately ~0

[g] r the good traits I have..i think i hav a lot.. yeah!!!

[b] r the bad traits which i hav a lot as well, so my [g] n [b] are equally as much..+_+'' so they offset each other.. so it's zero as well ~0

[m] is the amount of men I hav nw.... well, i wish i could at least hav one, but too bad, i'm having very bad market nowadays due to my weight crisis!! =_=''

[q] is the quality factor which mean the quality of the men i hav nw... n since I have none nw, so v dun hav to bother wit [q], it's zero anyway.. ~0

[b] stands 4 buddies...after subtracting enemies, backstabbers, jerks, idiot, people who call me bitch... i found tat the num of my enemies r more than the num of my buddies, so it's going to be a big negative ~-X

[f] stands 4 family..and fortunately I'm stil hav a dad, a mum and siblings. so it's gonna b a positive 4 my [f],.. but [f] positive oso offset [b] negative..so it's stil zero for nw..*sigh* ~0

[c] is my career, since i'm a lazy student, obviously my future career is uncertainty, so again it's a big zero ~0

So as u can see, the intrinsic value of my life is ZERO ~0 now, which means i am practically WORTHLESS.. +_+''

a long long way for me to reach NIRVANA!!!

 photo provided by mr xeng, thx!!!

do u feel wat i feel now

omg, i can feel how the others feel when they did ntg but ppl rumors about them, coz tats wat happened on me now, i felt guitly, i swear i wont gossip n talk rumors about anyone anymore!!! i'm so sorry for all de badtalks....

up n down of my mood within these few days....

i was quite happy las few days, coz i won in mahjong, my bro gav me rm100, my sis gav me rm150, my dad gav me rm50 as my cny lei si, but after the rumors thingy, its reli spoil my mood, add on, juz now i was drink tea wit my ex ex bf, well get wat i mean ex ex bf? means de bf b4 my ex bf, n then by knowing he stil couple wit his gf, i felt a little bit sour, hm, okie, i hav to admit tat i felt jealous, but, i dun like him ady, he is juz a normal fren for me, but, i felt depress, y ppl can couple for so long, but i couldnt, is tat my problem? i guess so...

end up, smtg brighten up my day, i jz check my short semester result, guess wat i gt? wahahahaha, i got A n A-, for my measure drawing n method of documentation subjects... well, to b honest i didnt put much effort, thousand thankx to my group members which worked so hard on it, n oso my group leader!!!

rumors kill me

akane says:

hey gal u there?

XXX @XXXXX says:
yaya

akane says:
amy told me de bangsar guy said wat his fren kno me wat fuck me b4, wat roti bek, it is a very serious statement lo, can u ask ur bangsar fren whos the fellow who told him these? n oso, if he cant point out any1, plz ask him apologize in front of me, o his so call fren

XXX @XXXXX says:
i ask b4
he ignore me
he told me alot of stupid stuff..
n now i seldom meet him dy

akane says:
wats de bangsar email?
i mean fb?\
let me go c c wats his shit face

XXX @XXXXX says:
dun hv fb
tat fella looks lik monkey tat 1

akane says:
dun let me kno he gt add my fb n i ignore him b4
his msn?

XXX @XXXXX says:
i very du lan him dy
he alwiz away 1..

akane says:
u juz giv me his email
no nid worry tat i wil add him o wat
juz wanna kno whos tis fellow which backstep me

XXX @XXXXX says:
tinsakkusing@hotmail.com

akane says:
email name oso sound sohai

XXX @XXXXX says:
he got a bad mouth..alwiz talk nonsense
yala

akane says:
wat tinsakkusing, me somemore 飞龙在天la

XXX @XXXXX says:
n alwiz tink tat he's da best
hahaha

akane says:
he has fb
juz i think he isnt active user

XXX @XXXXX says:
i tink so
i tot he cancel his acc dy...
tat time he told me tat acc jz 4 them 2 organise family event..

akane says:
yong sui sui\
dare to backstep me dun dare to come out dun dare to point out

XXX @XXXXX says:
he onli dare 2 talk behind onli

akane says:
never 得罪him suddenly come talk nonsense on me, wth
reli feel like slap kao him

XXX @XXXXX says:
he told me alot of things le...
i shoot him b4...
told him not 2 spread tis kind of rumours around..
he say he tell me onli

akane says:
i talked ntg for de 1st time i met him, oso dun understand i 踩到区边条尾。
yeah....
u help me to pass a msg to him
say i say " tell me whos the fellow he mention he fuck me b4, if i reli ada jalan wit tat ppl, come on i will admit in front of everyone there, but, if it's not, juz say sorry to me oni, its so damn easy, if like tat he oso dun dare to do, okie, obviously he reli chi ma gang, too free hav ntg to do, morning wake up nvr wash mouth, come n step on my tail"

XXX @XXXXX says:
haha..good
ok
n he told me..u pak tor wif a guy 4 1week den borrow money fr him

akane says:
obviously wat m i offer its gd for him ady right? is either he's saying the truth n i admit wat i did, o he admit he juz bull shitting spreading untrue rumors n say saorry

XXX @XXXXX says:
i dun tink tat he'll say sorry

akane says:
"i mean obviously wat m i offer for him its gd for him right?"

XXX @XXXXX says:
he'll jz escape
tat fella mou lan yong 1 la

akane says:
wah, i reli very mad lo
ma chao hai, rude word oso come out dy
hey u pretend ntg happen ask him to come out yam cha wit me

XXX @XXXXX says:
i try la...but nowadays i din talk 2 him dy
coz du lan him...n he dun dare 2 appear in front of u all..i can guarantee

akane says:
nvm, if u reli on my side, then u juz ask him yam cha wit u
i wil go by myself
n i wil gao dim by myself

XXX @XXXXX says:
i try n c la

akane says:
if he cant tell whos tat fellow, i reli wil smack gao him
n dun let me kno if is his fren who spread de rumors, i wil smack gao his fren

XXX @XXXXX says:
he told me his fren say 1

akane says:
tats y i say, if he can tell whos the fren who said tat, okie, gd, i wont go after him, i wil look for his fren, but if let me kno there r nvr hav "his fren" tis fellow b4, i'm reli wil smack gao him, unless he say sorry to me in front of everyone

XXX @XXXXX says:
ok...i'll c how..if i hv da chance 2 yham cha wif him
i sleep 1st la
99s\